COMBINED GENDER IDENTITY AND TRANSSEXUALITY INVENTORY (COGIATI)
Your COGIATI result value is: 160 Which means that you fall within the following category:
COGIATI classification FOUR, PROBABLE TRANSSEXUAL
What this means is that the Combined Gender Identity And Transsexuality Inventory has classified your internal gender identity to be essentially feminine, but with some masculine or androgynous traits. It is very possible that you are a candidate for a diagnosis of transsexualism. You show a strong degree of gender dysphoria. At the very least, further investigation should be undertaken. Your COGIATI score places you among the majority of those diagnosed as transsexuals, the 'late onset' tanssexual. SUGGESTIONS FOR ACTION: Your situation is potentially serious and indicative of a probable inborn gender conflict. It is definitely recommended that you pursue further action. The suggestions for your circumstance are several.
1. It is recommended that you seek help from a sympathetic counselor or professional about your gender issues. It is very possible that over time they will become increasingly difficult to cope with. Early determination of what you really need and want is vital. You need to determine if you truly are transsexual. Keep in mind, thought, that many alternatives exist other than complete sexual transformation. Partial transformation and many other way of existing are available. While you are very possibly a transsexual, COGIATI has determined that this is not absolutely certain. While time is an issue, being certain is more important. Proceed with investigation of your possible transsexuality or transgenderism, but with caution. 2. Some actions may help you to define your needs more clearly. Experimenting with living full time as a woman, taking hormones for a short time under supervision, or taking testosterone suppressers to observe how you feel are all viable options. Keep in mind that while it is very likely that you might be a transsexual, it is not certain. Do not take severe or permanent actions without long thought and the help of counselors and professionals. 3. Your gender issues are real, and should not be ignored. Neither should you rush into acting on them, however powerful they may feel. You do not fit the full criterion for the rarest classification, classic transsexuality, and so should be cautious, and open to possibilities. You may yet end up undergoing transition, and the path of the transsexual may well be your salvation. Be very careful, but do not ignore your issues. 4. If you have not already, consider joining any of the thousands of groups devoted to gender expression of various kinds. There is literally a world of friends to discover who share your interests. There are also publications, vacations, and activities that would expand your gender expression.
I remember my first Cross-dressing experience from when I was quite young, maybe four years of age. I was not yet at school so I was under five years of age. I attempted to put on a pair of my mothers tights and girdle. My older sister caught me and scolded me for it, ( she would play a large part in my future dressing, or at least her clothes would ). I can't recall if she mentioned it to my parents. I must have continued to experiment as I remember wearing my sisters blue catsuit and boots in my early school years, I think this must have been an issue with my parents as I can remember being made to go out wearing them when I was about seven years of age ( I must surely have enjoyed this ). I vaguely remember saying that I wanted to be a girl, I don't think this went down well with my parents. In my teens I would venture into my sisters room when no one was home and get dressed in her stuff. I can remember the thrill of one time finding fishnet stocking and a garter belt in her underwear drawer. On one occasion when I was in her room I clearly remember looking out the window while getting dressed, I had a Bra on, and to my horror my older brother was outside with some friends on their bikes. I remember him looking up at the window, I'm sure he saw me. Another time when I was dressing I went downstairs to the kitchen, again to my horror my older brother had come home, I remember holding the door closed as he shouted “ what are you up to? “. At other times if people where home I would go into the bathroom and lock the door, as this was where the laundry basket was kept containing my mothers and sisters dirty washing. On several occasions someone would bang on the door with the familiar question “ what are you up to? “. I do not know what was going through my mind back then, as I seemed to be taking a lot of risks, even purchasing a pair of white tights from the local shop. I had been tempted one time to go out fully dressed in my sisters clothes, but thought better of it, instead I put on a pair of my sisters panties and tights under my jeans and decided to take the dog for a walk. My friend had shown up earlier and I left him in with my younger brother, on returning I went upstairs to remove the panties and tights, as I was doing so my friend bounded upstairs to see me. I'm certain he saw what I was doing though never mentioned it. I would often go to sleep wishing I would wake up a girl, though I never did surprisingly enough. There was no one I could speak to about this and very little/ if any resources like there is today. I have never told anyone about this, ever...... I had seen Transsexuals in the media and I wished I could be like them. But there was no one to turn to, and I feared the reaction of family members if I came out and said I wanted a sex-change. I don't recall many events in my early twenties apart from the odd bathroom venture. I moved out in my mid twenties and rented a room in a large house, to my delight one of the drawers was full of unopened stockings/hold-ups, it was like Christmas! I wasted no time in putting them to good use. There was no Internet at this time, so openly buying female attire was too risky.....
I moved in with my then girlfriend in the second half of my twenties, she was a petite size 8, so most of her stuff was too small, though there where several items I made use of when she was out. One day after she left for work I immediately got dressed in some of her things, to my horror I heard the key in the door! I bolted into the bathroom, she had obviously forgotten something and asked if I was OK? I said I had the shits.... On many occasions I would dress in her things when she was out, even going so far as to try on her wedding dress and all the lingerie that went with it. Sadly the marriage didn't last , though I have fond memories of her underwear and other clothes. In the past two years I have purchased enough tights/stockings/hold-ups to last a long time. I own more ladies shoes/clothes/underwear than I own male attire, plus two dildos, an epilator, wigs, make-up etc. I have been shaving/epilating for quite a while now, the feeling of being hairless and smooth is incredible, I don't think I can ever go back to being hairy, yeugh! I've even considered buying one of those home laser hair removal kits, but the reviews don't seem that good. I do say that if I win the lottery then it's hello hormones, boobs, FFS, hair removal etc. A girl can dream huh? So I can dress whenever I want now, with hopefully no one trying to knock the door down! However I've got absolutely no intention of ever venturing outside in female attire. Ciao....
COMBINED GENDER IDENTITY AND TRANSSEXUALITY INVENTORY (COGIATI)
Your COGIATI result value is: 40 Which means that you fall within the following category: COGIATI classification THREE, ANDROGYNE What this means is that the Combined Gender Identity And Transsexuality Inventory has classified your internal gender identity to be essentially androgynous, both male and female at the same time, or possibly neither. In some cultures in history, you would be considered to be a third sex, independent of the polarities of masculine or feminine. Your gender issues are intrinsic to your construction, and you will most likely find your happiness playing with expressing both genders as you feel like it. SUGGESTIONS FOR ACTION: Your situation is a little tricky in our current society, but not tremendously so, depending on your geographic location. The suggestions for your circumstance are not overly complicated.
1. If you have any comfortability about your gender expression, some slight degree of counseling might well prove helpful. The primary goal would be to make it possible for you to enjoy your gender expressions free from any shame or embarrassment, and to resolve any remaining questions you might have. 2. As an androgynous being, both genders, and both sexes are natural to your expression. Permanent polarization in either direction might bring significant unhappiness. It is not recommended that you go through a complete transsexual transformation. You might find a partial transformation of value, if you find yourself more attracted overall to the feminine. You are more likely a transgenderist, than a transsexual. It is recommended that you recognize that your gender issues are real, but that extreme action regarding them should be viewed with great caution. 3. If you have not already, consider joining any of the thousands of groups devoted to gender play of various varieties. There is literally a world of friends to discover who share your interests. There are also publications, vacations, and activities that would expand your gender play.